Hello world!

my first entry:

I don’t want to start talking ‘feelings’ here, but there’s a lot going on in my head and heart at this point in time. They are not Bad Things – I am only trying to rationalize my feelings which lead to muteness. It gets me isolated. I am at rest, but questioning if that’s a good thing. It feels like a continuous fight, like I’ve always felt. Yet, I feel slightly different this time. I have found what I was looking for, I think. At least I understand a lot more then I ever did. Maybe I have to take this step, as I want to start by tomorrow morning. It feels ok. Tomorrow will be the first day of my life. Still, I can not do this alone. So, any support is welcome…